Monday, December 19, 2011

Sugar in the tree

Sugar in the tree
By Mark Nepo

As someone sitting beneath a tree can imagine the earth from above the trees, a heart encumbered by reality can know eternity.

As a boy, I spent many hours at the sea on a thirty-foot ketch my father had built. When the sea would get rough, I’d go below where the noise and motion of the deep would pound the hull and every toss and lurch would feel sudden and pointed.

Finding me there, my father told me how sailors, when feeling seasick, have always made their way on deck to look at the horizon. While that doesn’t prevent the pitch and drop of waves in the storm, it is somehow less upsetting if the larger context is kept in view.

I have kept this wisdom close to the when pitched in storm. In truth, whether facing cancer or riding the insecurity of repeated rejection or trying to surmount the most profound moments of loneliness, my greatest pains and fears have been lessened when I’ve managed to keep the largest sense of life before me like a horizon.

This is the difference between despair and faith, between the narrow point of doubt and a view long enough to sustain all life-giving possibility. It seems we suffer more when huddled below, and through the eternal perspective, the horizon of all time and all life, doesn’t remove us from our storms, it does make things bearable.

During the hardest times, keeping my eyes on the horizon has helped me endure such things as the loss of a rib, and a marriage, and a job I loved. For staying where we can keep God in view allows the ups and downs to be somewhat predictable. It even shows that suffering has its rhythm. Keeping the larger view can be the difference between thinking life is cruel and knowing that experience is a powerful ocean. In ways that truly matter, God is always in the horizon, and faith is making our way on deck despite our pain.

·      Wherever you are- in your bedroom, at your desk, or on a bus – sit quietly and see yourself sitting there from above your bed or desk or the bus you are riding.
·      Breathe slowly, and be both where you are and above where you are.
·      Now feel the stress or pain of what you are carrying this instant.
·      Breathe slowly, and try to see yourself in your life and from above your life, and feel both your pain and the Universe surrounding your pain.
·      When you find yourself huddled in your pain, try to breathe your way to the horizon.