Monday, December 12, 2011

Pursue the Obstacles

Pursue the Obstacle
By Mark Nepo

Pursue the obstacle. It will set you free.

When I came upon the mountain, I was in a hurry. I thought it would take too long to make my way around, so I set out to break a path through. Each rock and each branch felt like a waste of time. If only the mountain weren’t in the way. I cut my legs and arms as I rushed along. It grew harder to breathe, and I lost all sense of direction. Now I had to climb high enough to see.

Once I broke the treeline, something in me had to see the top. Then I hurried my way up, and strangely, as I worked the climb – step after step- I kept rising, but felt as though I was going nowhere. Finally, I broke the clouds. I had never seen sun on top of clouds. I sat in a clearing on a cliff, the light on top of my head, like a cloud. Suddenly, reaching the top or getting beyond the mountain no longer seemed important.

I liked it up here and felt that I could live on the mountain. But I had to return. I had to eat. I needed love. But now when someone asks about breaking through what’s the way or being in a hurry, I look both ways and say, “Pursue the obstacle. It will set you free.”

This story invites us to honor each obstacle as something flowing in its own right in the Universal stream, to see ourselves and the obstacle as two limbs of the same tree drifting in the same river, bumping into each other, and even blocking one another for a moment.

Looking at obstacles this way, we are asked not to oppose what blocks us as something mounting its will against our own. For the obstacle will simply give our resistance back to us. We are being asked not to empower or perpetuate the life of the obstacle, but to step aside if we can with openness to the energy of the obstacle- much like the ancient art of Aikido, where instead of blocking a punch, you help the punch move past you.

All the while we are invited to question that in us which insists that what is before us is an obstacle in the first place. It may not be so. It may be so. It may be something small that our history of struggle has enlarged into tragedy or bad luck.

So if we can, we must focus on our relationship to the stream and not the the things being carried alongside us. If something appears to be blocking our way, we must try to understand what is moving it and what is moving us. If our movement in the world is still blocked, perhaps we are meant to be still. We must try not to damage ourselves unnecessarily by trying to force a movement t happen before its time.

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What is an obstacle look or feel like to you?

I think of the tasks of daily life, work and those things that pop up out of no where! (Kevin’s car accident, Dad’s sudden decline)
Yet these things I find manageable because they are tangible.
The challenge for me is the emotional obstacles because they are unseen, sadness, depression and anxiety. I rush through my day not even noticing them. And I find this causes them to build up until either breakdown or illness strikes. 

I am seeing that being with the emotional, not trying to brush it off or rush through it, sitting with the feelings and allowing them to live has helped in understanding myself and what I am experiencing at the time. Too many times I have rushed through life, hurry up! Now I say slow down. And in the words of a very wise friend, “default to do nothing.”